But I’ve just got one ;)
I met my Aunt Anita and Uncle Leon for lunch at Mcallisters Sunday. It was very nice. I haven’t seen them in 14 years. Gage was a doll as always and warmed up to them very quickly. I won’t let that kind of time go by again.. Life is too short.
In other news..My teeth hurt.. REALLY BAD.. It’s much worse this pregnancy. It doesn’t help that I have had such a sweet tooth this time. Arggghhh..
And here’s a few pics of Gage eating his bunny his Aunt Nita brought him <3
I felt you.
You were a pea. Then a lemon. Then an eggplant.
I followed advice. I read twelve books. I quit coffee.
Could you tell I was scared?
I talked to you, sang to you… I wasn’t ready.
But then you were here.
Ten toes. Eight pounds.
Big fat love.
I held you. I fed you.
I realized that I would spend my life doing things to make you happy — and that that would make me happy.
And then there are the times I want to give up.
You’ve made me rethink my sanity.
You’ve made me want to fall on my mother’s feet and tell her
that I get it.
But then you smile and you say my name — and you grab my hand with those little fingers.
We’re growing together. We are seeing the world like it’s new.
I will open my heart and love will rain down all over you.
You’ll giggle, and I’ll do it all over again.
And we will walk hand in hand.
Until you let go.
I made you, but you made me a mother.
Fever, sore throat, dry cough………
Crap. Leave me aloneeeeeeeeeee. Being pregnant and sick is the worst because I can not take ANYTHING except tylenol.
Whatever.. I am not giving in to this. I have stuff to do. I can’t spend another week feeling terrible, and even if I do.. I AM NOT spending it stuck at home and on my bed or couch.
I like Wednesdays. It’s one day short of my weekend, and my mother-in-law always comes and brings me lunch and plays with Gage. She usually wears him out, and that is a BIG deal. We get awesome naps when she leaves. <3
I’m starting to get really excited about moving. I’m letting myself imagine it without letting it torture me to still be here. I don’t hate it here or anything, I just miss my mom and I miss being a part of something. I also really want this for Gary. Now that his job has transitioned into the area of engineering, I know there is more opportunity for him elsewhere. I want him to go to school, because HE wants to go to school. And I could handle that with 2 babies if I were close to my Mom. At least if I were sick (like this last week) she could come in and be a reinforcement for me.
I think we’ve decided that right after the baby is born, we are going to take out a loan on Gary’s 401k and just move. With 7-8k we could get into a place, pay all our deposits and at least KNOW we would be ok IF it took him a few months to find a job. But I really don’t think it will.
Ironically, a government inspector that is always encouraging Gary to get into an auto-cad program, is based out of Tampa. I really think he could help him once we are in the area. But right now it would be a conflict of interest since the guy is contracted through USMI. But he sure was quick to give Gary all of his info when he told him we were considering moving to that area. It kind of seemed like a sign?
Change is scary. It just is, but the idea of spinning our wheels too long in one place is even scarier. Especially with a growing family.
I’ve also been thinking about possibly getting into real estate..(commercial realty). It’s something I seriously toyed with in my late 20’s. I saw a lot of friends go in that direction and even with the economy, they have all done well and love it.. and are STILL able to juggle the family thing.- I just lost my drive at that age. I gained a ton of weight, worked mediocre shitty jobs and didn’t care much about anything. I completely lost myself and all ambition. It’s not anything I’d do immediately but it’s something I’d consider once I felt like my babies are old enough. We’ll see.. Lot’s to think about.. And who knows, maybe that won’t even be necessary. It would be nice to have that kind of security though.
I don’t have any ideas of grandeur.. but I have ideas.. It doesn’t hurt to entertain the possibilities and the paths that could get you there..